Your Grace is Enough.

Your grace is enough. I know I say this phrase at least 60 times a day in my mind, over and over. Your grace is enough, your grace is enough, your grace is ENOUGH. But do I ever believe it, yes I do, but the way I think and the way I act make it seem as if I don't believe something I say constantly. Day by day, I always feel like I need something new, something I don't have, and usually something I don't need. And I go get it to satisfy my needs, but how long does that satisfaction last until I depend on some other new thing? About a day, maybe two. But Hebrews 13:5 says, Keep your life free from love of money, and be content with what you have, for he has said, “I will never leave you nor forsake you." So if God is with us always, and if he is enough and probably more then we will ever need, why do I get these crazy needs for something more then his grace? Because the devil is here to "kill, steal, and destroy" and that is all he is here to do, to destroy my knowledge that God is enough. Knowing God is everything, and knowing the devil gets you nowhere. Sometimes it gets extremely hard to follow after the creator of our life, but if we become content with what he gives us, then life in general will become more and more easier to accept the things we do not have, and know that we don't need them. God is working tremendously in so many lives recently, and I just pray that we can all follow the one that gave us a life, and promised us forever in his glorious kingdom. 


For by him all things were created, in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or dominions or rulers or authorities—all things were created through him and for him. And he is before all things, and in him all things hold together.
Colossians 1:16-17


"Life is rough waters, be sure to have a stable boat."
-KG 

You make Oceans from the Rain

I don't know what it is about this morning, but God woke me up bright and early at 6, when normally i'm maybe up at 7. First thing I did when I woke up, was pray. Got in the shower, prayed again. Opened my laptop and Walk by Faith was playing. God is just amazing this morning, every day, every second, actually. I feel like he picks me up off the ground, kicks my butt and keeps me going every single day. I don't deserve his unfailing grace but i'm SO glad he keeps giving it to me. I feel like God is starting to place things in my heart and my life that are bigger than I could ever be, and that's okay with me because I know whatever he's up to, and whatever he puts on my heart, he'll walk me through it step by step. The man upstairs with the ultimate plan is truly amazing and inspiring. I wish and pray that every person on this Earth could experience his wonderful mercy, wouldn't that be awesome, a world that was so in love with God that the devil couldn't even think about coming out of the gates of hell? I'm so thankful to have such an AMAZING heavenly father!

For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith – and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God
Ephesians 2:8 


"Life is Rough Waters, just be sure to have a stable boat."
-KG

Why can't we be like Peter Pan, never grow up?

Me again! So today, I got the opportunity to schedule my senior year classes the way I wanted..yes, senior year. Man, I feel like yesterday I was a Freshmen freaking out because I had braces, I didn't know how to do my hair, and I wore too much black makeup on my eyes. I can't say I miss any of those things, but I do miss knowing I had so much to look forward to. Time flies doesn't it? Thinking back on my high school experience thus far, I can't really complain. I mean, if I could I would go back and change a lot of the choices I made that I never knew would effect me so much, but then again, I always say, "there's beauty in the breakdown". Which means that there is beauty in the most difficult, unpleasant things, involving those stupid decisions. I still have a whole year to make the best decisions, and these will probably effect my long term life more then anything i'm sure. I really can't wait to see myself in 10 years from now, how much more i'll mature, what kind of job i'll have, if i'll have a family, or if i'm even out of college yet. For I guess for now, I need to keep my head up and keep it that way so I can keep bringing in my future positively, with no regrets and definitely no negativity what-so-ever. When I think about it, I ever want to actually grow up, stop being fun at all times, and just be boring like a lot of older people are. I understand that there is a time to be serious and a time to act like a 12 year old, but many adults forgot a long time ago what it felt like to just act like a child and not mind one bit. I'd really love to always be my smiling, crazy outgoing person, even when I do have kids and a career. Why not have fun? I mean if  I've got to grow up and age and what not, i'm most definitely going to have a blast while doing so.

"A grownup is a child with layers on" (some layers thicker than others, obviously.)

Life is rough waters, just be sure you have a stable boat.

-KG

How Great Is Our God?

I say this often, but I am blessed. Today, a friend asked me to go serve at a Chrysalis dinner for the boys that were on the walk this weekend. As I served, I was reminded of my Chrysalis experience which was AMAZING!! (If you haven't been, go..i'll sponsor you!!) Anyways, just seeing some guys that I know personally on fire for the Lord, rekindled my heart and made me more on fire for God. I mean what isn't amazing about our lord? I can't think of one single thing. The songs of worship, singing, dancing, smiling, laughing, and just having a great time with those who love the Lord as I do, warmed my heart and made me realize that he is soooo worthy of mine, and everyone else's praise! He is so worthy. I know that sometimes I slip, and sometimes I trip, but the Lord my God will never..NEVER let me completely fall. He is so forgiving it's almost ridiculous. One day, you could curse his name back and forth and the next decide you're wrong and he would take you back into his arms like you've never done a thing wrong. I love this about my Lord, because nobody else can ever forgive the way he does. 
From the rising of the sun unto the going down of the same, THE LORD'S NAME IS TO BE PRAISED!
Psalm 113:3

"Life is rough waters, just be sure you have a stable boat"
-KG

I am blessed beyond belief.

Okay so yes, today was Valentines Day and I can't lie, I had a pretty awesome day. I mean besides the 10 million hour show choir practice (don't get me wrong, i LOVE show!) but I could've had a lovely date instead! But enough with that, things are finally falling back in place again, like they should. I admit, there for a few weeks I had an obvious stupid streak but who doesn't sometimes? All the stupidity made me realize what really makes me happy in the long run and not just at the moment. Hard to understand, I know. But i'm happy again. I'm just glad that I'm not lying to myself about what makes me happy anymore and actually following what I should do. It also puts a smile on my face that some people never give up on me. I mean what gets better then that? You mess up time after time, and still they're right there with there hand still reaching out to you. If that isn't a sign that there is a wonderful God about then I don't know what is. Man i'm lucky. Often times I don't grasp how lucky and truly blessed I am, but I am so blessed it would take days to count my blessings. I dunno, I'm just glad that there is someone who knows my one million flaws, and sees one priceless thing about me and loves me for it.

Love is easy-going, love is compassionate and thoughtful. It has no lust or rivalry, it does not brag to everyone around. it is not cocky and kept to itself. Love isn't cheating others, it's not always "me first" , it's always peaceful, hardly ever angered, it does not think of the past but looks to the future. Love is happy always and is never spelled backwards "evol (evil)" and it never lies, not even a white lie. It always protects the other, always trusts, has a hopeful mind, always keeps moving forward. Love NEVER gives up, but stays forever.

"Life is rough waters, just be sure to have a stable boat"

-KG

I am the ultimate under-analyzer of decisions.

I hate realizing I made a mistake weeks after it happened. For some odd reason I don't analyze what will happen in the long run when I make a decision. Sometimes I just don't understand why I do the stupid things I do. I like to think my mistakes can be fixed and everything will be just fine, but I just have this strange feeling I can't make this one up. I won't tell you what i'm talking about, because if you know me..you know exactly what i'm talking about. But you may not know that I regret it, because I keep it all inside. And honestly, that's getting hard to do. I just hope soon, my punishment for my stupid decision will be relieved..please.

"Life is rough waters, just be sure you have a stable boat"
-KG

Ramble ramble.

Sometimes, no matter how much it hurts, you have to give up. You have to be true to yourself every once in awhile and you have to realize what is best for you and your life. I know giving up isn't easy, especially for someone as stubborn as myself. But when the world looks at giving up and says that you should never do it, sometimes it's best that you do, if even only for a little while. It's such a relief..sometimes that is. And other times it stinks. I'll admit, I hate the feeling after giving up. You feel like you've lost some pride or a piece of you. But in all reality you haven't, if you do give up, you must have a pretty good reason. Most the time you don't realize it, but in this particular situation, I gave up to move on. Because being stuck on something that might never be possible is nearly impossible and way ridiculous. Sometimes I wonder why I think certain things are so great, when they really aren't at all? I find one awesome thing about something/someone and I run with it, then everything portraying to that thing becomes amazing..when it isn't at all. I'm just rambling now, I've got a lot on my mind if you couldn't tell. Another thing, Valentines Day is coming up, and while in middle school I used to be so infatuated with the holiday, now it makes me want to lock myself in a closet and gag myself to death, brutal right? Trust me..I know. But I'm serious. I don't hate any day more than I hate Valentines Day. Like is it only for those that are so in love that they have to have an actual day for it, and the ones who are bitter about love (me me me!) get stuck gagging themselves all day? All I'm saying is that, if and when I actually fall in love, everyday will be Valentines Day. Because I'm pretty sure if you're really in love you don't need one day in the year to make it know, but 365 days to make it known in a year..am I right? Well. I'm done with the rambling, I hope you're fantastic, and try not to gag to death this Monday, like I might!

"Life is rough waters, make sure you have a stable boat"
-KG